This is my first post as you can tell.
I hate to come right out with negative stuff, without properly introducing myself, but I guess anyone who wants to know about me can just read these entries and piece it together.
Not like anyone really gives a shit anyhow.
So I am the oldest of 5. Girl, boy, girl, boy, girl. The hott redhead is the middle child....everyone else has brown hair. She is the one who got all the good, unique looks in the family. She is 6 years younger than me.
She is not very outgoing, but I am. I meet ppl and they become my friends. They meet her and suddenly they are HER friends, not mine anymore. She flirts, she giggles, she gives them vast loads of fun, silly attention. I become the older, 1st friend...but now the boring one. Suddenly I am not good enough as a friend I once was just cause my sis, steps in and is a silly bobble-head. I can be a friend, and be fun, but I do not lead ppl on, flirt without intention, of throw around physical attention.
Hell why wouldn't they go for her instead?
Guys that I have been interested in, have lost interest in me after meeting her. Every guy I have every known has to tell me how cute/hott my sis is. I have lost friends to her.
My recent ex, was trying to get with her while he was with me. He admitted to always thinking she was cuter, but not doing anything because at the time she was underage. We were together two years.....and this was going on the whole time.
Now another ex of mine, who has stayed good friends with my family through the years, is interested in her. Him ad I have just came to a place where we could call each other best friends....he starts hanging with my sis, and now he is interested in her. If I try to hang out with them both, they ignore me, or make me the butt of their jokes. It's like I am not in the room at all. The talk over me, they don't listen and they have all their little inside jokes that I am not apart of.
I can't stand hanging out with them. I have talked to both about it, but the situation never changes. They turned it on me saying that I just didn't want them to be happy.
I don't want my ex. I liked him as a friend, but I am loosing him to my sis, the same way I lost my boyfriend, my interests, and my other friends. I know how this is going to play out and I really don't feel like living through it again.
No matter what I always loose to my sis. I am sick of my friend leaving me for her. She is always considered the smart one and has the most potential. I star something, she copies me, and she get the recognition. Every ime. I am sick of always being second-best. She the pretty, I am the plain. I hate it.